Its almost the D-Day. Decison day for many. But Doom day for some.(a part of I feel the same)
While i put these words in here, i think of what if its NO from them. A "NO" would shatter my dreams.(but the inner voice says, there is life beyond MIT)
To be frank, there was never a day with out dreaming about being at MIT and taking part in each and every mighty activity. But there were many confrontations aswell. Once again IV(inner voice) consoles by saying "You dreamt a lot beyond MIT. MIT is just any other way to reach your goal. Its definitely not the only way". And then i am recharged. :)
Past five years, staying away from the family, have been the years of learning, learning to live. I had to work hard to self-start, self-motivate and even self-initiate. Dad always says "Give out your best and never think of the results". He is verymuch true. But in my lifetime, i never remember a moment or incident i gave my best. I never said this to him. He asks me, "Son, how did you do?". I answer, "I did just fine, dad". Had there been any victories or any glorious moments, i just consider them to be the resultants of the relative competitiveness. Einstein's relitivity applies even here. If there is any reason i lose the admission thats only my MATH2 factor. I would have definitely done better with some dedication and practice. But what keeps me from working hard? I know, its just the feeling that -I i am a gifted. I try to overcome this feeling, trust me i really do. But this feeling, a kind of superiorty complex, sucks you in so that you will never be able to get out of it.
And when i see someone who does the things i didnt, a feel of Inferiority complex follows it. This one is also a killer. It makes you to hide in a shell and show yourself to the world.
I always feel, life is a balance of these two feelings, superior and inferior. He who balances these is the ultimate VICTOR. When you do your best, you are already riding this bycycle with the wheels S and I in an efficient way.
Time to signoff. By the next time i visit, i will be out of the cradle of confusion. I will get know to what point did my deeds counted upto.
I really want to....but can I??This reminds me of a devine saying -
"I asked GOD for what i want, but he gave me what I need." - Swami Vivekananda.
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OK. First of all D-day.. I call such days as J-day.. the judgement day. Anyway.. i cannot stop saying 'WOW',a nice start.
And after reading the whole thing i can say that it is the one of the best blogs i have seen until now. Again my praise is also relative here..one of the best.. until now..
But i bet that it took me on a journey of emotions/feelings which you are going through.
Whether you get into MIT or not, i see that u have a good future. Atleast you can become a writer and give us "MIT: How i missed it?". I am just kidding. Please don't take this to heart. And i sincerely wish that you get there. All the best Naga!!
I will be waiting for your new blogs. Keep me posted.
Pradeeppp!! I know about u, this is great ra.
u'r Goal!! the theme of u'r Goal (which i know already) is really great man, never thought we can target for this kind of goals to reach our destiny.
don't drop you're father's words, keep in mind.
instead all the best i would like to say congratulations but..but..still i can only say that....and i want u'r next blog should be from being a what....what....nothing but u'r goal MITien.
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